Three Years Ago, Three Years Later

Oh god! I’m so jealous of my memory for today three years ago!

It was the day I had slept only two hours and half, then I had activities for full day, from 5:30 to 20:00. I felt like I was a walking dead, yet I had warm body. That was not R from Warm Bodies, but that was R.I.T.H from Phnom Penh. XD hahaha

I miss how I was nervously walking through crowd of street market at down, alone, and for first time. I was reaching the blue dot on my messenger’s map. My heart kept racing, the butterflies in my stomach kept moving non stop too. God! My dot was closely gravitating to the another dot on Share Location plateform.

Olympic Stadium, Independence Monument, Royal Palace, Central Market, Sorya shopping center, Wat Phnom, Russian Market, and Aeon mall before we headed back to the bus stop. That was how our 14 hours and half went.

I also remember that April 25, 2017 had a heavy rain in evening. Some roads were flooding. Lightning and thunder frightened me.

I remember I ambled back home alone again with so many emotions in my head. I remember I got a promise for another meetup in the future which would be longer, better, and further. 

Money

I used to work in an apartment at the middle of the city, as a receptionist. I received payment over $500 every month from each tenant is fine, for I knew they were rich. But when I have started to work here, a pharmacy in a rural area, received only $10 from people who earned very little  a day made me sick.

Their face expression when they heard the amount they had to pay and when they hand me money was secretly breaking my heart into pieces. Especially, when they brought all the money from their pocket out, and it still wasn’t enough for their fee. I honestly felt very uncomfortable in that situation.

Many times, I had tried to calculate it again and again because the amount they had to pay seemed higher than what I had expected just to make sure I was not mistaken. 

I couldn’t help anything beside watching all of these conditions happened in repeat.